Nano-Traps

Response is something often necessary, especially when always under attack. When one responds, one addresses and works within the context one is responding to. This is not to make an absolute distinction and attribute every response exclusively to what is responded to.
To make things more complicated: the hall of mirrors. There is mirroring in response, and there is mirroring in a mirror. And I claim to be in a special position despite every single thing being reversible against me. First of all, not only is every single thing reversible against me, but every single thing is reversed against me every single time, like clockwork, like something goes out of its way to reverse everything against me. Second of all, they mix prior and posterior and respond to my responses to them, and thus enforce their deniability of everything they do in practical ways. Also, as everything has been arranged to exploit precisely me, I must spend much time absolving myself of things, which protects their absolution of everything they do. All the things they’ve been insisting on for a long time are all the more protected if I stand up to them, due to my particular position, and it’s arranged in this very precise way. And when responding to me and becoming mirrors of me, they can do this with ulterior motives, do this out of context, do this in large numbers, pursue me with great obsession while doing this, wedge these mirrors into something I'm doing in order to blind me from something else they are exploiting, etc.
Anti-matter creates the illusion of equality to matter, and that in the eyes of anti-matter, matter is anti-matter. Everywhere I go I encounter many I’ve never seen before but that all seem to know who I am. Every so often I will encounter one or ones that I’ve never seen before but that seem to know who I am and are eager to attack me. This happens especially whenever I experience any peace of mind or allow thoughts to go through my head in public, and I can never know who it will be because they all seem to know me while I’ve never seen any of them. Morally they can protect this because within the context of their deniability I experience hostility towards them for things they deny doing. Anti-matter attaches itself to everything I do, and everything I do is crippled by targeted anti-matter. The entire system is personalized to me, and they always work to obscure everything by assimilating me to them in perception.
Even if there was no distinction between existential and non-existential, nothing is in proportion and nothing is in perspective, and I am being specifically targeted and exploited and am immensely outnumbered. They don’t attack their own if ever there is any doubt of their distinctness from the rest. They seem to pride themselves on all being the same.  whether something is existential or non-existential makes the most crucial difference, and this is most emphasized precisely in this set-up.
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if there is any vulnerability in me or in my writings or anything I've written that's easy to dismiss and exploit, this will have consequences next time I go outside. often I dread going outside because of this. they themselves correspond to every vulnerability in my life in coercive ways. they target me as a society, act like they know me everywhere I go, single me out and pick on me everywhere I go, team up against me at every opportunity, spy on my life, permit nothing in my life, and go out of their way to always exclude me and to make the conditions of my life as excruciating as possible. then, because I must be bound by standards of equality towards them while they are not bound by standards of equality towards me, then things like memory, caution, and thinking in general, infringe on them in the same ways that they, with their entire being, infringe on me: they superimpose themselves on my life and then subject me to standards of 3D space without allowing such space.
they have been treating me very abusively for many years and have created many traumas. I don't like them and I don't enjoy it when they come near me. I associate them with everything that one victimized by abuse will associate with the figure of abuse responsible. but they must proceed in the same ways, and so the inevitable existential consequences of being treated in these ways are just exploited.
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and if they turn themselves into mirrors or distortion-mirrors, they are then immune. and yet they are exploitation-driven-beings that operate as a virus and in very large numbers. even if the mirrors are not distortion-mirrors, it's a distortion not to acknowledge a hall of mirrors as a hall of mirrors. and then there is the authority of a mirror, and if you acknowledge it as a mirror you are only empowering it against yourself, and yet it may very well be an exploitation- or distortion-mirror.
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and when I don't write constantly: every so often, a day will be chosen for me to come under attack. it will start off with something I'm doing privately being invaded in some big brotherly way, conditioning and psychological torture being inflicted on me as punishment for something I am doing privately or something I am thinking, or some bite being taken of me in some other way. it will be sufficient for me to see reason to respond, and as soon as I respond either I'll find out that everything has been prearranged to target me for my response, or everything will suddenly be switched to target me for my response. if I write of something big it will be diverted towards something small that will trivialize what I'm writing, and if I write of something small it will be diverted towards something big that I'm not allowed to say anything about and can get attacked by mobs for (the first instance can have similar results as well). everything will be arranged on the days chosen to target me to further target me for targeting me, for no other reason than for me to be violated and then not permitted to respond to this in any way.
I am of course only permitted to react and never to instigate the expression of an opinion without having first come under some sort of attack, because the collective is always sealed around my throat and there is not a single breath that I can take without victimizing some spy or number of spies. I am also told that I live in a democratic society. as I write this I receive electric shocks to my body.
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in a situation of extreme inequality, somehow it's ingrained as inextricable that every single thing I write serves as an umbrella for the numerous beings that are set on targeting me. and when they are set on targeting me, not only will they nest in everything I write every time, but this standard of inextricability proves to be inapplicable. non-existential beings protect themselves by my every existential problem, and this of course ends up creating ever more existential problems. and their insistence on targeting me in large masses, and their insistence on lying about everything, and the situation of extreme inequality and endless guns pointed at one person, and the obsessive application of a logic used precisely for purposes contradictory to this logic, all end up creating ever more existential problems, in which non-existential beings will nest and by which they will justify extreme inequality: my every move being very closely monitored, every detail of my life being swiftly met with retributions, everyone I encounter another prison wall and member of the team against me, and nothing in my life being permitted.
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Everything is curved in a very particular direction, and this curve ensures the future curving of anything that may be attempted to be built on it. If I do nothing to contribute to the curving, I will just be under persistent attack in accordance to this curve which will not stop until I stand up for myself, at which point the curving will immediately be attributed as emanating from me, due to the requirements of the curve.
Moreover, everything is covered over by a false grid of equality that is there to protect and camouflage the most extreme inequality. Everyone is there to corroborate everyone else and every hand is there to wash every other. Everything is protected by deniability and ambiguity and often hidden under things dismissible as mundane. Everyone is very obtuse while everything is set in their advantage. If anything, however obvious, protects itself by deniability, however dubious, it will always have an entire army to protect its deniability against eyes that are able to see.
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They are just extremely stupid and team up against me in large masses no matter where I go. They are there to enforce the truth of all the things they are not capable of questioning in personalized ways against me in correspondence to every breath I take. There is not a single thing I can do that won’t be met with retributions, and every detail of my life is very closely monitored, and so there must be some sort of justice in that. Is there anyone else who is capable of saying that they are treated so justly? They don’t know a single thing from experience but are always very forthcoming in telling me what I’m allowed to do and knowing better what I should do.
The retributions they inflict on me for every detail of my life everywhere I go are on the level of their capacity to comprehend. If they create massive problems in my life, they can then inflict retributions on me for the problems they create. If they do something and then lie about it, they can then inflict retributions on me for the fact that the things they do bother me and create massive problems in my life despite them lying about it. The funniest thing is that them lying about it actually makes it even worse, and doesn’t help in any way.
And their logic seems to be that if something bad is done to me, it means that I must deserve it, because nothing bad is capable of happening to someone, who is me, unless I deserve it. I wonder in what multitudes they would attack me if I was to make such a crude judgment. Meanwhile, they never get a single thing that’s coming to them and just keep getting away with this shit year after year.
If they attach themselves coercively to every single thing I do, then everything I do will be a great problem to them and everything they do will be a great problem to me. Then they can twist this against me and suggest that my consciousness attaches itself to their actions and they are tyrannized over by my consciousness (whether I express it or not) as they happen to know me intimately everywhere I go. Or they’ll arrange everything in correspondence to descriptions I give in ways that will make my descriptions appear as reversed against me. Or they'll cripple by punishments things in my life and then protect their exploitations as reflections of the traumas created by this.
Nano-beings, in large numbers, can create very large problems. Everything is restricted and everything is brought to paralysis. Everything they do is protected by the problems they create, and they exploit fairness to them and disguise everything they do in every shadow of every such problem.
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whenever I start writing, the pieces of shit again become coercively involved in the process of writing in the most destructive ways. they attach themselves coercively to everything I do and police my life. they also exploit every thought that I think in the most cold blooded manner. they permit nothing in my life and keep forcing me into positions that will enable them to prey on me most effectively. I must explain everything so as not to be viciously attacked, and then they prey on me for explaining by taking advantage of everything I write in coercive ways. and brutal and cold-blooded retributions are inflicted on me for things I merely think.
they exploit every exploitation and take it to extremes where they are able to attain some semblance of equality under which they are protected. the more I go into detail about it, the more brutal will be the results, because they attach themselves to everything I write and treat my writings as instructions. then, if I don't go into sufficient detail this will have brutal results as well. they prey on everything and police my life.
if I am violated in some way and then respond, they are then protected by this response and each of them is able to keep violating me precisely in the same way and then be immune against any further response, as any further response will keep being diverted towards the first instance.
if the iron-fist of the public comes crashing down on me, anyone I interact with is protected by this and able to exploit this.
if there is some big event, generally, no reference to any particular event, immediately invasions of my life will be increased to exploit that I am in the spotlight and they are not and are protected by deniability.
if they take environment-enhancement to an extreme and use it to police my life, this allows them to also treat my every breath as a tremendous cataclysm in exploitation of a false semblance of equality that's created.
if they are non-living things and I am a living thing, this allows them to treat me like a non-living thing when I don't treat them like non-living things, in exploitation of their lies and my existential position (although when they don't treat me like a living thing often I can't treat them like living things either, not because I acknowledge them as non-living things but because they don't treat me like a living thing).
in dealings with them, if I do anything with good intentions, they'll accuse me of the opposite to punish me for any good intentions, and will never let any such thing go without punishment. same for whenever I falsely read any good intentions into anything they do. (this type of thing can also disguise itself as a very mundane human thing, although it's done quite intentionally and is designed to constantly kill my hope and spirit).
everything is arranged just so and filled with various traps, and then I am policed by these very numerous and very obtuse beings that just revolve around me and are there to make me miserable.
they usurp and exploit every existential trait and use the impostoring of these precisely to police my every breath as well as to exploit these very existential workings when they occur in me, and often force me precisely into these elaborately designed existential positions that allow for maximum exploitation.
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it's difficult to describe their nano-workings. in reference now specifically to personal interactions with them, although all facets use the same methods as all other facets whenever required.
they always make a lot of suggestions, and in fact have been exploiting this in very extreme ways, by means of all facets, for a long time. then, if they come in the name of being extremely well attuned to suggestions I make, intentionally or unintentionally, they are then protected by any defense I attempt against them, and indeed exploit this.
or they will come as self-proclaimed magnets of a distorted karma that is more akin to a curse and in fact ensures that justice can never occur, and take it to mirror everything I do and everything I think. every defense I attempt against them, they'll try to turn against me, and always in distorted and out of context ways. their motives are never pure, and they don't seem to be aware of themselves or of their part in anything at all. if I try to be fair to them they'll immediately take advantage of this. if I act to them in a manner similar to how they act to me, this will be taken out of context and used against me, as they are not accountable to a single thing they do.
more generally now:
I always have to be reminded that they are there to target and police me, and that injustice must always prevail when committed by large numbers masked by human faces. they lie about everything, cover everything they do by lies, castrate all intergrity and all reason, but they have everything on their side. they've arranged themselves precisely at my throat, always keep me in the position of being targeted and isolated by whatever justification required, prey on the most basic existential workings and often under the masquerade of their own existential workings, and then I can't say anything about it, or if I do, they can then act 'in retribution' to myself to 'teach me a lesson'. they target me in large numbers, use every weapon of a tailored society with tailored traps against me specifically, lie about every single thing, treat me like I'm extremely famous without acknowldedging me as famous, subject me to every possible nook of equality while ensuring inequality is always at an extreme, and all this in the name of their 'justice'.
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there is also a distinction to be made between the reasons they provide for why I shouldn't question the world and shouldn't have freedoms, and the fact that they are just there to police me and just constantly look for these reasons, and it really doesn't matter to them what these reasons are but they'll just use whatever works best at any time, and what works best is what works best in relation to me, and so their subsequent accusations are often precisely backwards.
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everything I write, only has an increasing effect, rather than a mitigating effect on the targeting of which I write, which is kind of the opposite effect than that which I hope for. at the same time I am a living thing, and when a living thing is constantly abused, this inevitably doesn't just disappear into nothing.
I am not allowed to say a single thing about a single thing that is actually happening around me, and the pieces of shit that act like they know me everywhere are there to enforce the truth of all the lies that are there to protect them. everything is there to protect everything else, and such details as everyone acting like they know me everywhere are just not treated as very important.
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whenever it is required to increase mass-involvement in my life, they'll just reveal themselves for what they are. this means that they'll be bound neither by conscience nor shame, will team up against me, do nothing to hide the targeting and do nothing to hide that they're all there to play for the team. it's very familiar to me to be treated in these ways by things that look like people, and I'll be able to just see what's around me and will almost begin feeling like I'm permitted to see what's around me and that it's just obvious that I can be truthful about what's around me. the instant I respond to anything though, the context is immediately switched and every response is suddenly put in the context of them all being very wonderful. then they just keep repeating and repeating this. they destroy memory, they destroy integrity, they destroy confidence, they pretty much just destroy every possible thing.