Reverse Panopticon

they’ve been policing my thoughts and my senses by means of relentless torture for very many years, and using this to intentionally cripple every aspect of my life at all times, and not permitting me to react lest they further single me out and converge on me. they did not allow me to ignore for an instant that they were doing it on purpose, and would take brutal advantage of my thoughts whenever I would make any excuses for them so that I would be able to have any temporary peace of mind, and they did not allow me to ignore for an instant that they were policing my thoughts and torturing my senses in correspondence to my thoughts, and would take advantage of my every effort to block them out in any way. they would not permit me to close my eyes or blur my vision around them, and they would not permit me to block my ears around them. everywhere I would go they would act like they know me and know every detail of my life, and would police my life by means of their great numbers and in the names of anything they could. they never left me alone for a second, and any time I misinterpreted this as an attempt by them at being friendly, they would coldly reject me, team up against me, and humiliate me in large groups. then they would deny every single thing happening around me, corroborate each other, and subject my every breath to the standards of some society which is not this society. they would unanimously overlook every single thing happening around me, would notice every single reaction of mine, and would use this to team up against me as well, and anything else they could. they would always keep me in the spotlight no matter how much effort I had made to be private, and would use the spotlight for every kind of manipulation, every kind of distortion of truth, every possible distortion of perspective, and every type of targeting and exploitation that can be accomplished by large protected numbers against an individual always kept in the spotlight without of course ever being recognized as possessive of any sort of authority or fame, and usually labeled a misfit, criminal, or mentally ill. the latter labels have of course expanded in many ways, but other than that much of the above persists just the same.

the logic of the reverse-panopticon is to target an individual who is always kept in the spotlight from every direction while everyone works as a team against the individual and everyone is there to protect everyone else, other than the individual being targeted. the types of targeting are determined by this setup. of course one always kept in the spotlight is made to feel an obligation to always be truthful, against their own interests, because the lights are fixed on his every move while those surrounding him who tell only lies are made obscure and are permitted any double-standards because of this. of course one is constantly accused by these prison-guards precisely of being deceptive, and can suffer punishments for even uttering such a statement as ‘one is made to feel an obligation to always be truthful’. there are very many things that the prison-guards can accuse the prisoner of but not the other way around, due to the requirement for constant demoralization of the prisoner, although very often these accusations are more accurate backwards. the prisoner is not permitted to express himself very well, as he can rarely get through a sentence without uttering some profanity because otherwise this will be interpreted as a vulnerability by the prison-guards, and is also very limited by the prison-guards in the ideas he is permitted to express, as all eyes are at all times on his every move and any uncareful step is quickly met with punishments no matter where the prisoner goes. this makes the prisoner also appear as vulgar, which of course works to the benefit of demoralization of the prisoner which the prison-guards exploit.

the types of targeting are tailored to the prisoner and to the spotlight. if any defenses by the prisoner can be made to appear inverted to the prisoner, this is a very effective method of personalized demoralization, as everything the prisoner holds in high esteem will be made to appear to the prisoner as inverted against them, which is accomplished by means of manipulation and the flexible and arbitrary use of any and every context. if the prisoner uses any context that is borrowed, this will only be exploited, as the prisoner is the only one in the spotlight, and so the prisoner can be violated precisely according to the context they are using, and then any reaction by the prisoner will allow the prison-guards to accuse the prisoner of exploiting this context. and so, the prisoner cannot use any borrowed contexts, while the prison-guards are permitted to use any borrowed contexts they wish, and the prisoner is not permitted to be playful, humorous, or to do anything other than be very straightforward all the time, which makes it easier to accuse the prisoner of being deceptive and of hiding their deceptions precisely in this way. the prisoner is also not permitted to speak calmly, as this will be treated as a vulnerability by the prison-guards. and any logical arguments of course don’t impress the prison-guards much.
the war is extremely elaborate and was waged against the prisoner long before the prisoner was ever aware that there is a war. ‘mistrust’ of the prisoner is never manifested as mistrust but always as penalties and punishments.