as they've been policing my thoughts for such a long time, the very sight of a piece of shit is reminder enough that I am not permitted to think. and so when I walk outside, the only thing I can do to defend myself is to try not to think, since them not being there is of course out of the question. and so what they'll do is they'll use one form of exploitation to make me start thinking, which will easily work because I am already trying not to think because they're everywhere. and when I start thinking they begin multiplying at an ever faster rate, to remind me that I am not trying hard enough not to think, as they would not be multiplying so fast if I was. with this having gone on for years, somehow it remains the easiest thing to forget that I am not allowed to think, I just keep thinking again and again and don't learn, and they brutally exploit that.

their favourite form of exploitation is probably pretending to have feelings, which is funny because after society has left you for dead enough times, it's obvious that they don't.

I would hope for a second pair of eyes to notice the extreme degree to which I am being picked on, but anyone I would hope to notice - they just pick on me also.

unlike the last time that the police-mass turned against me, this time they had taken care to first reduce my life to so little that there is absolutely no means of fighting back.

I know I am right, but my judgment has stopped meaning anything even to me because I am so accustomed to not being listened to, while the leeches just keep eating and eating away.

scary: the mob that suppresses my individuality and coerces everything in my life has acquired the mass conviction that they should have a right to be there and to keep attacking me in great numbers.

in the primeval society, a bad conscience is associated with saying 'I', and with thinking, and it is a matter of great danger to experience doubt.

the nazi population persecutes me for my philosophical views, attacks me in mobs when I try to stand up for my rights, and punishes me for thoughtcrimes that I express in words and even more for thoughtcrimes that I commit inside my thoughts.

when I feel like making one kind of art, they'll shame me into making the other. if I then make the other, they'll tempt me into making the first. and then if I ever feel like making the first again, they'll penalize me for doing what they tempted me to do. but it would be so much more useful if someone just bought my art so that I can have money.

the pieces of shit constantly attack me in swarms. if I react, there is no end to leeching upon that. if I don't react, it will just go back to the way it used to be where they keep attacking me in swarms and I keep not reacting.
their greatest advantage is definitely just being such pieces of shit: they can't hear anything, they are immune to reason, they are not limited by any conscience, and they are just always there in very great numbers for no other reason than being pieces of shit.

when I try to walk a short distance from one place to another in this little society of ours, it is not about getting to that place, but about dealing with the population on the way, and watching what stories they'll tell today and how they'll misinterpret whatever I have written in every conceivable way and what they will tell me I am guilty of and what wound that they created they will keep picking at. and the funniest part of it is that I don't even want to see them, they are the very reason why I avoid going outside whenever possible, and I wish they would just fuck off, but it does not seem as if they know how to do that.

there can hardly be more general statements than the ones I make, especially for someone that writes 'freedom of speech' at the top of every page, and yet these still manage to acquire the most specific and false meanings. maybe the world is just very small, and the society that tyrannizes over me is a society of fucking idiots.

the pieces of shit are pretending to be unhappy with my life. of course, they can't actually feel anything, so this is the best that I can hope for.

in a totalitarian regime, a great weapon, is of course an army. another great weapon, is an entire population serving as army. another great weapon, is absolute control over the environment. another great weapon, is knowing what you are thinking and where you are all the time.
not only do the brutes tell him to kill himself, they constantly attack him in great swarms in efforts to drive him to kill himself. these are the brutes that then tell him to feel guilty for unkind words about them. they do this by means of threats, exploitation, rape, torture, and the use of enormous numbers constantly attacking a single individual. when they call themselves 'liberal', they are lying. when they police his thoughts, it makes them the police. anything the police say, must first be taken as a threat. and no emotion should be felt towards anyone who is the police.
I am told that I live in a society where on rare occasions, the police will release to the public pictures of violent offenders, and that this is considered somewhat controversial. I would think this is pretty barbaric, but then I think of my own life: I haven't committed any crime, and have not been in any newspaper, and yet the mobs are unleashed upon me every time I go outside, and they seem to know everything in my life, and so obviously, anything I'm told is true about this society and anything that's in the newspapers is not even close to being true.
it's not so difficult to see through the lies, but unfortunately I'm surrounded by fucking idiots who exploit everything, leech on everything, and reduce everything to their level by force and their great numbers.

sometimes I realize that I have actually not done anything wrong, it's just that I am being picked on by the entire population and everyone always wants to take my rights away.

going outside of the house has obviously become very difficult to do ever since the collective has taken over everything, soiled everything, and began policing everything. I know they lie, and yet often I can’t go outside because there is something I know they will exploit and police and they will all do the same, which may take more power of resistance than I happened to feel like expending at that particular time. I can look at my webstats and many other things, and yet the lies can be more convincing when everyone has the same opinion at the same time. on a good day, I’ll walk down the street and be harassed by piece of shit after piece of shit, and then a piece of shit will come along and pretend to be a person and expect to be treated as such, and that will be the worst of it.

if I talk to a piece of shit, it will assure me with much aggression that no one is spying on me, and so often I find myself going outside with the expectation of not being mobbed by a bunch of nazi pieces of shit who spy on me and use everything they spy on against me, and am always disappointed.

but the erratic mob will just have a different story tomorrow.

the pieces of shit constantly make this world even more narrow than it already is by telling me that they are people, and so all the things that apply to me, also apply to them. for one thing, if they were people, there would be no explanation for anyone recognizing me on the street.

the nazi herd population will constantly find excuses to involve itself in your life. if you've managed to stop taking them very seriously, they'll use their unitariness to convince you that you are guilty of something, and so now not only are they justified in being everywhere, but it's beyond questioning that it's ok to spy on you, team up against you, police everything in your life, censor you, and for every member of the population to discriminate against you and harass you everywhere, while still not one of them will admit knowing who you are, although they will hold every detail in your life very much against you.

when good relations with the herd are severed, the herd then resumes its function as police.

I'm taught that racial discrimination is the absolute worst thing there is, unless, of course, it's being done to me, in which case it's ok. but this, I'm taught, is just because of my race.
I have much reason to believe that both my race and gender are complete fabrications, and yet these things are constantly used against me by those who don't have either of these things.

wouldn't it be funny if it became politically incorrect to say anything bad about 'the collective' or 'the herd' ?

I am not permitted to take off my ear-protection inside my own house, ever.

when I go outside and the whole collective appears much more disapproving of my life than they did last time, is this supposed to mean anything? their very nature is that they always turn against you and stab you in the back.

this website disappears whenever I don't write on it for a day, and every time it disappears the population feels more comfortable invading my privacy, thus they want to coerce me to keep writing every day, although obviously they can't hear a fucking thing, because if they could they'd be able to just look at my previous writings.

it has been determined that the population will be more involved in my life today.

as always, when it's that time, at the same time everyone proves to be the same.

and when society has shunned you for long enough and left you with no direction to go, you begin receiving threats of arbitrary arrest. perhaps because I have spoken so strongly against it, which to their logic is speaking in favour of it.

day after day, they just always insert themselves into the middle of everything.
all the things society teaches me are really not ok to do, it turns out are ok to do to me.

I am just constantly being policed, and it never stops.

they had to create the particular trauma that left me with fear of not paying attention to them, because I devoted all my life and energy to just ignore them, which is not permitted.
nothing I say will make any difference, the pieces of shit will never change, and I must spend every moment thinking of the pieces of shit, and if ever I don't they start picking at the trauma.

the police-state is so set up that criticizing the police-state amounts to nothing more than falling into the hole that's created by their unitary lies.

of course, they don't actually have any right to be anywhere, but they've taken over everything, own everything, ensure that I don't have anything, and am not permitted to be anywhere, which is somewhat backwards. this is accomplished by everyone being the same, gladly participating in my oppression, teaming up against me by the millions, and everyone saying the same things, which leaves no one to turn to.

the population does not permit me to have any solitude. if I move towards more solitude, I am so brutally tortured and my privacy so much invaded, that I am forced to accept something with them in it, and this so they can make me feel unwelcome and bully me and outcast me as they always do.

the leeches will constantly convince you that you owe them something, and so although you may not even like them, and may wish for nothing more than for them to fuck off and die, they nonetheless will coerce you to devote every bit of your life to them.
they make it very difficult to register a sensation or think a thought when you are around them. and when you do think a thought, to them this is the equivalent of expressing this thought as being your opinion, and so you can only think thoughts that you would be ready to express as your opinion when you're around them. this is a little more than damaging of one's ability to think, and if this then forces you to be more talkative, they will not be very sympathetic towards that either.
if there is something that can be criticized about the thought you are thinking they are made to bark at you then as well. these will often be good criticisms that you yourself will make regarding your own thoughts if given a chance to. but when they get to it first, it doesn't fill you with desire to then make these criticisms, and so they are not exactly helpful, more damaging than just useless, and there is really nothing much better that they can do than go away.

their ability to make faces will also give you the impression that you are not talking to idiots. but if you observe them you realize they just do everything you say they do, and so obviously you are talking to idiots. listening to anything they say rather than just looking at their faces will also give you a quick reminder. and it just so happens that they always all do the same things at the same time, and they all seem to be completely convinced that this society is what they say it is, despite them being enthusiastic participants in your oppression. the more you try to convince them or reason with them, the more they will prove to be pieces of shit, and always find ways to also make you think that it’s your fault.

I don’t suppose I would enjoy being constantly attacked by mobs even if they didn’t know my thoughts. of course, when I am constantly attacked by mobs who do know my thoughts, it is understandable that eventually I will begin having a problem with it. when a traumatic event such as this is a daily occurence year after year, the most important thing is to develop some kind of defence mechanism to shut them out in any way possible. but this very act of basic self-defence is actually one of the things that are least tolerated by the thought police (I am talking about defence mechanisms that I practice inside my thoughts). why all this ideology and manipulation, and why do I find myself buying into it again and again? it’s because I try to protect myself against the most basic and brute form of thought-rape which all of society would like to constantly commit against me.

The Methods Of Exploitation

- everything is controlled, everyone is the same, they work as a team against you in every aspect of your life, then they tell you this is a completely normal society, they all say the same, and they tell you that because you are the only one that says different then you must be wrong.
- they’ll make you think they’ve ‘changed’ or ‘matured’, which will make you not notice in what petty ways they are taking advantage of you.
- they’ll make you realize how great you are so that you will forget what pieces of shit they are, and then they take advantage of you.
- they’ll tell you that you are guilty of something serious, and the sheer seriousness of it is supposed to make you forget that you are not guilty of it. or they’ll create an event that is serious and that relates to you personally, which is supposed to make you forget that it’s created, and then anything you say is put in a context they’ve created.
- everything in the news is a metaphor, but everyone around you seems to take it literally, and the literal meaning is often the opposite of the metaphorical one as this relates to you. if you take either of the two positions, you will be put in the context of the opposite one.
- if you’ve succeeded to avoid being boided by one group, immediately the next group will try to boid you. no one will accept that you are just speaking for yourself, and they must always make everything come undone.
- if you have something to say, you are brutalized. but if you don’t feel like saying anything you are coerced to. then when once again you have something you feel like saying, you are again brutalized but with the justification that you’ve been coerced into saying it.
- they’ll fabricate a language, for example, english. there are hidden words inside every word, and this becomes more important than what you are trying to use the words to say.
- they expect you to believe a lot of things that don’t make any sense.
- they’ll define you as a ’solipsist’ and then expect you to prove to them that you are a true solipsist and also a good person. I only define myself as a solipsist for their sake. then they put your solipsism in the context of a world which this isn’t, and tell you that your character is the reason for your solipsism, not the nature of this world.
- nothing is more evident than that they don’t give a shit about anything. if I am ever caught giving a shit I am exploited for it. then they tell you that they are the ones who give a shit and you are the one that doesn’t.
- the list goes on

it was just yesterday that I thought of how the pieces of shit leeches just don’t go away. no matter how much they suck out of you and how much they praise you afterwards, they’ll just be back for more the next day. however, I made the mistake of assuming that I am permitted to just make observations and find things somewhat interesting, and when I was brutally mobbed and thought-raped when I went outside today I was reminded that the police state will also coerce you into taking these pieces of shit seriously, because they must leech.

the pieces of shit cut off everything in your life, restrict everything, stalk you everywhere, leave you with nothing, then somehow find ways to take even more from you, and then they try to provoke you in various ways, because they’re just so cool, although if you ever step out of line they’ll be the ones to call the police on you.

other things that are happening in my life: I am being shunned, I am being discriminated against, I work but am not permitted to have money. it has become a matter of shame to even enquire if there is anyone interested in buying my art as my relationship with them is a relationship with a block, and my relationship with the block has not been so good ever since the block has cut off everything in my life. moreover, they don't want me to have money right now, as that would encourage me being able to do anything other than nothing, and so the block doesn't seem to be on the path of ever stopping to shun me. also: I receive electric shocks all over my body. this happens all the time, but seems to be intensified when I do such things as read or write something on the internet, or think. an equivalent to this cannot be found in all your written history, only in some of your movies, which are generally considered dark. anyone care? no, it's only these nazi pieces of shit everywhere. they drain the meaning out of anything I say because no one listens, and make it so there is no point in even trying. In the past I had even been persecuted and disciplined for such acts of speech which while stating the truth about our society, do wildly stray from the dictations of the Ministry of Truth which deny the truth of anything true. moreover, there is a herd-ideology at work to make such statements a matter of shame and ridicule, and to designate them as lunacy. it seems to me that those who deny the truth of anything true, and claim that this society is something that it's not, may not be the best judges of lunacy though. it is expected of me to constantly make modifications in everything due to them being pieces of shit, and if I try to change anything favourably, I am confronted with them being pieces of shit, and so only I should constantly make concessions to them.

the pieces of shit drain the meaning out of everything, and since they insert themselves into every area of my life they drain the meaning out of everything in my life. when they've done this for long enough, suddenly they'll be put on the side of meaning and they'll say: you are one to whom nothing means anything, how did that come about? (and they honestly won't know the answer to that..). for instance, when I speak of living in a society filled with nazi pieces of shit, this may sound like a light and casual remark, but is actually not meant as such.

after going to great lengths to take away your freedom of speech, it's a little surprising to then find that it's unacceptable to not talk to them. although their ideology denies anything that's happening in this world and in your life, if you say nothing around them they begin making fun of you KKK-style. but why talk to these idiots? not only do I have to listen to their ideology and be told that all the oppression I undergo is not taking place, but they'll even turn my beliefs into ideology and only be capable of understanding them as such. they create contexts and then put me in their contexts and hold it against me that I don't fit favourably in these contexts. if I say nothing they'll even put my silence in the context of whatever they happened to be talking about, and hold that against me. I must always struggle against them because they are always nazi pieces of shit, yet it is constantly reaffirmed that there is no hope of them ever possessing any understanding or tolerance, that they will always operate as a collective and a system against me with everyone on the same side, and they will always turn a blind eye and especially at those times when I have nothing. no matter how absurd what they do, they will always all do the same things at the same time.

for those who are not really there, they are certainly always there, and I've made it plain I wish they just weren't. yet they somehow seem to have some sort of notion that I must constantly prove myself to them. if they are there to restrict my freedom, it would seem to be my place to try to expand it. however, when they restrict my freedom they seem to expect me to partake in restricting my own freedom, because maybe that will increase me in their eyes, while they still don't go away.

the entire piece of shit population is constantly judging every little thing in my life, but the fact that the entire piece of shit pupulation is constantly judging every little thing in my life is not treated as anything unusual.

it's difficult to see how replicated their methods of exploitation are when you are undergoing them. they'll even tell you that you say the same things over and over again, which itself is true, but is quite taken out of context when they deny inflicting the same abuses on you over and over again. for years you've endured these abuses until you began to seek ways to mitigate them, but the thought-police-leeches will simply deny these have ever taken place, and will label the very act of you trying to mitigate them as the instigation of all hostility, which even justifies shunning you and discriminating against you (which they've been doing long before I ever tried to mitigate their abuses). thus they drain your desire to talk to them and listen to how normal a society this is and how all the things you observe and undergo are to be denied. at the same time the population has also drained your desire to even go outside, because despite what they tell you in words, their methods of leeching will be much less effective if they don't act like they know you as long as you are trying to stand up for yourself (whereas if you are down and they are kicking you, it may be more effective for them to act like they don't know you). you are surrounded by relentless leeches, and even more unfortunately they are completely insane. your financial situation, social life, quality of living, and every aspect of your relationship with the entire monopoly and collective is completely determined by the thoughts you are thinking. no one seems to see anything wrong with this.

I am subjected to extreme forms of brutality if I pay attention as well as if I don't pay attention, and if I exercise my freedom of speech as well as if I don't. it is made to seem that when I am policed, it's because I did something wrong (or thought something wrong). of course, it is perceived by that which polices that in every situation there is only one right thing to think. and it is a matter of great shame if I have thought the wrong thing. it is understandable that I am being shunned, and it is a casual matter that I am surrounded by nazis, and I shouldn't even bother to expect to be able to go anywhere without being harassed, and no one owes to tell me the truth about anything. but the eyes are on me, and I must conduct myself and my thoughts appropriately, and behind it all I am to believe there is someone who understands, and commits endless bullshit against me so that I can recognize it as such and say: 'what bullshit'.

whatever I do, the pieces of shit will be there to oppose it. but because if I was doing the opposite they would oppose that as well, then I am really doing the opposite of what they would oppose if I was doing the opposite of what I'm doing, so I'm really just doing what they want me to do, and so I should only take the position where opposing the opposition means doing nothing, and just keep doing that. if I try to make them stop being pieces of shit, I will be reminded that there is no point in doing that anyways, and then I will forget altogether that they are pieces of shit, because there is no point in even thinking about them. soon after, they'll have to remind me that they are still pieces of shit, but by then I will have partially regained hope that there is a point in trying to make them stop being pieces of shit. etc.

the only area where they practice any honesty is their faces. if I talk to them they tell only lies and even laugh at me if I don't subscribe to their shared ideology. so I look at their faces, and that's what they exploit next. it begins with anger that I undergo extreme torture and brutality and society turns a blind eye, or more often participates, and laughs at me for it, and it ends with the fear of being further persecuted if I even dare to bring it up and challenge the ideology which denies any of it happens and which everyone shares. if I write about it, they are so indifferent that the focus ends up being that I write, rather than what I write.

the pieces of shit make you realize that there is just no point in dealing with them, but they don't ever leave you alone. they will refuse to have a relationship with you, and will do so unanimously as a society, and they will refuse to not have a relationship with your life which will be of a type undesired by yourself. whatever you try to do, they will go to great lengths to destroy and drain all your desire and energy for it, and even send their top boids with custom propaganda designed for this purpose. when they've managed to kill whatever you were doing and convince you there is no point in it, they'll coerce you to keep doing it even if you don't want to. then, if you try to do anything, you will be labeled as one coerced into doing it, and so you've lost that freedom as well. basically, they ruin your life.

the more they prove to be completely useless and not able to be reasoned with, the more I understand their irrelevance to my life and the unjustifiability of them being anywhere, and so I try to be left alone, and they never permit it. sometimes they'll admit to being useless for a while, and when I've managed to have some space of my own, suddenly they'll insert themselves and claim to be creatures with reason and judgments, destroy this area of my life, coerce me into dealing with them, make my entire life revolve around them, prove to me they are useless and unreasonable, then shun me, harass me everywhere, drain my desire to do anything or go anywhere, destroy even the things in my life that were already there before they came along, and leave me to the pursuit of being left alone, which if accomplished they will destroy.

they limit your life to the absolute maximum, and then somehow find ways to limit it even more.

everywhere I turn it's these identical pieces of shit.

whenever a short period of time passes, the pieces of shit involve themselves in my life and restrict it according to my thoughts.

and if I don't feel like paying attention, then I'm not permitted to pay attention: the pieces of shit will become involved in my thoughts whenever I pay attention. and if I don't like them, then I'm not permitted to ever do anything except spend every moment hating them, and if they ever catch me not thinking about them they'll have to violate my rights, and this indeed works: every time they violate my rights I must think about them and hate them.

the pieces of shit will often try to convince me that I'm guilty of things of which I'm not guilty (often these will be the very things for which I'm actually praiseworthy). so all I have to do is see through their lies right? no, they'll have to become even more unified and even more identical to each other, and go to even greater extremes to stalk me everywhere I go, and eventually I'll have to also believe their lies. they won't stop until they've destroyed anything that's in my life, and this is expected to be accomplished by the sheer shame I am supposed to feel before the unanimous and disgusting mob which terrorizes me, because they say so.

I know in advance that they are on principle always wrong and there is no point in even paying attention to them. but they force me to pay attention so that I'll have to analyze just in what way they are wrong and once again justify myself to them. this is nothing new: they act like a herd and they use tactics such as outcasting and shaming in order to discourage points of view that are divergent or have any originality. if what you say is not corroborated by great multitudes or anyone at all, this will not sit well with the herd. yes, there was no point in even paying attention to them, but of course they forced me to.

the pieces of shit use their multiplicity to team up against me everywhere I go. the mob doesn't respect my rights, but I'm expected to respect the rights of the mob, as if they should have a right to do anything but fuck off and die.

unlike me, they don't need reasons, they just insert themselves into my life whenever they want.

if I feel like writing every day, then they coerce me to keep writing every day even when I don't feel like it. if I go one day without writing something, they'll take away my freedom of speech the next day. they are everywhere and they are idiots and they are useless, and they force me to live according to their rules. I wish they'd just fuck off and die, but they never seem to do that.

another weapon is defining you as a 'solipsist'. in a real world there could hardly be any narrower view than solipsism, and during my life this philosophy never especially appealed to me. then I found out that the world is imaginary, and so I must define myself as a 'solipsist' just to avoid persecution. more often than not, I don't want to believe this world is imaginary, but unfortunately I am surrounded by hostile and unreasonable leeches and I constantly have to explain everything to them despite there being no hope of them understanding. their behaviour doesn't make any sense, but they don't actually know it, and they coerce you into living according to their stupidity. I am not recognized as being famous, but everyone acts like they know me intimitely, and if I question them they'll defend the accepted ideology with great force. nobody reads my writings, but if I stop writing they'll coerce me to keep writing. and they all have the same behaviours, personality, and ideology, and they'll all deny knowing who I am, but they use differences in their physical appearance as well as anything else they can in order to exploit me everywhere, and even expect me to treat them better than they treat me.

the pieces of shit attack me in mobs everywhere I go and leech on me in any way they can. they say they don't know who I am, but if I don't ask they act like they know me intimitely, and expect me to behave according to the standards of a society to which I should be grateful in some way, while permitting themselves to act in any way they please. they shun me and restrict my life in every way, and as years pass, no matter how much I do they'll work hard to keep my life at absolute point zero. they involve themselves coercively in every aspect of my life and reduce it to a very narrow routine. if I stray from the routine the mobbings will increase. I work and get no money, and am always kept at this point, and I'm not recognized as being famous in any way but everyone harasses me everywhere I go. basically, this is the polar opposite of a society to which I should be grateful in any way. other things they do to me are too numerous to mention. they act like a collective, and if I recognize them as a collective and treat each member as the collective itself, this is taken as an attack against the entire collective: it doesn't make any sense, they are just leeches.

to exploit you, they'll even pretend to have emotions, and for you to believe they have emotions they'll expect you to believe a lot of things that don't make any sense. although they make it very difficult to listen to them or look at them, I seem to very often find myself in situations where I have to do precisely that, and be immediately subjected to moral judgments about my intimate life from some piece of shit I've never seen before and never asked the opinion of. no amount, duration, or frequency of psychological torture they put you through seems to be any problem to them, and if you fight back they'll be extremely quick to criticize that.

wherever I go to buy cigarettes, it's not long before the store-clerk has to commit some vileness against me and I have to start going somewhere else. but everywhere I go, everyone is the same.

not only do the pieces of shit permit themselves to invade my privacy, but they don't permit me to have any area of my life with any privacy whatsoever. when I try to reason with them I am reminded that they are idiotic pieces of shit and there is no point in even talking to them. and so I seek an area in my life where I can at least have conversations with myself, and they insert themselves in extremely coercive ways and make that impossible, in order to remind me that they are idiotic pieces of shit and I should not want to have anything to do with them. and I can't even refute it, in fact, it's undeniable: yes, they are idiotic pieces of shit and I do not want anything to do with them. but if I do anything without them in it, despite overwhelming evidence that there is no point in having them in my life in any way, they'll use manipulation to exploit every moment in which I am not thinking about them. the newspapers are full of stories about 'people' dying, but whenever I go anywhere there does not seem to be any lack of them whatsoever.

as ruthlessly as they police your thoughts, so do they deny it and force you to endure their abuse as well as succumb to their lies. living around these pieces of shit certainly drains the meaning out of anything, and one might choose the path of thoughtcrime, which will be met with the immediate implementation of their methods of thought-coercion. basically, the fact that they deny policing your thoughts is actually used against you while they police your thoughts.

the pieces of shit involve themselves in my life and my thoughts, and restrict the use of my eyes and ears by means of psychological torture. this is enabled by everything being controlled and everyone being the same. they have no intelligence themselves, and will not tolerate any.

they forcefully take the position of 'being on my side', which turns me against my side.

whenever the world proves to be very insufficient, they have a funny way of turning that against me. their way of revealing themselves is by exercising their authority, force, and judgments on me. if I manage to notice, they are always coordinated, unanimous, and hypocritical.

there is nothing I can do to them and they're incapable of changing, but when they violate my rights I am the one being tested.

it's nothing out of the ordinary that because of my thoughts I will be shunned for indefinite periods of time and be placed on unofficial house-arrest.